Feelings, sad.

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.
Staring at the blank and thinking what is going wrong.
I do not know.
I thought I could do a good job by blocking all painful and unnecessary things from my memory.
But it turns out to be a disappointment.
Lying to yourself when things ain’t right, gives nothing but more pain to the other party.
I want to be alone, alone in some places, not to have to smile or look pleased.
Staring dejectedly out the window at the sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape.

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First time using iPad to blog! Can't remember when was the last time sitting on my bed, looking out the sky and thinking about things. Skies seems to be as gloomy as my mood. I don't know why. Shoulder aches every now and then, stress level is invisible. Met my besties for dinner, and everything seems okays. I'm thankful to have friends like them in my life. Wish for the better, and things will eventually gets better. I want to have a goodnight sleep, so-goodnight world!